…..so what is life. Why am I not strong enough to just restrict myself and not eat. All I want to do is b/p but I feel so disgusted with myself afterwards. All I want is to be thinner. Why is that so hard for me? Diet and exercise but no, I have to be a lazy, unmotivated piece of shit. I guess I’m just destined to be fat then if I’m not willing to put in the effort. Like really, where is my self-control? Fuck this.